My marriage of twenty years was over. In the many conversations with myself, I started thinking about what went wrong. I then begin trying to remember when she stopped saying I love you... It was during a telephone call. Did she say I love you before or after goodbye. I wrote the following as a song sung to the tune of a slow waltz.
We started bright like a red Christmas candle, but then faded like our first loving sheets. We soon wanted more than each other, forgetting the important thing was just you and I
When did we stop saying I love you, was it before or after goodbye.
Thoughts of loving you come again and again, like waves to the shore and
every time I remember...remember, "I do".
Those evenings we shared with other couples was nice, but the ones I cherish are those who stayed late. Your favorite was Grant and Dunne and mine were Wayne and O'Hara. We watched as they timelessly chased each other in the bonnie Irish sun.
When did we stop saying I love you, was it before or after goodbye.
Thoughts of loving you come again and again, like waves to the shore and
every time I remember...remember, "I do".
The children came one, two then three and we even thought about an buying an R.V. You were the perfect mom, always explaining why Dad's was going to be late. They grew so fast as the calenders change from Disney to Kincaid, and me I never got to those plans I had made.
When did we stop saying I love you, was it before or after goodbye.
Thoughts of loving you come again and again like waves to the shore and
every time I remember... remember "I do".
Memories leave us as we grow old, but please darling not this early because I miss holding your hand. You asked me to leave at the end of September. You said you and kids needed time to mend. The doctor said the therapy and pills should help calm my fear and rage within.
When did we stop saying I love you was it before or after goodbye.
Thoughts of loving you come again and again like waves to the shore and
every time I remember... remember, "I do".
I took some letters to the kids the other day. I needed to explain why Daddy wasn't there. I expected to find Jack with his lantern guarding the way. What I found was a wreath on the door hanging high and inviting, but the invitation wasn't for me.
When did we stop saying I love you was it before or after goodbye.
Thoughts of loving you come again and again, like waves to the shore and
every time I remember...remember, "I do".
I drove away sad and lonely. I didn't know where I was going. I only knew it hurt where I had been. My eyes were blinded by the on-coming lights and my tears were making the road curve. Please Lord, I just need a little hope that she will love me again.
When did we stop saying I love you was it before or after goodbye.
Thoughts of loving of loving you come again and again, like waves to the shore and every time I remember...remember, "do you".